Yesterday, everything fell into place. It started with a guest post by Katie on Then Heather Said. The post is about yoga and what Yoga has done for her overall health as it relates to well being and peace of mind. I immediately connected with what Katie was saying though I had never read anything on her beautiful blog before. By the end of the post, I knew that I wasn’t stuck anymore. I knew that part of my problem, ever since I quit yoga teacher training, was that I had allowed yoga to be exercise in my mind. It wasn’t about insight, honoring my inner wisdom or any of the real reasons I practiced yoga. It had become a way to burn calories. And while yoga is an awesome workout, for the longest time, that has been just a perk of practicing yoga, not the reason.
Honestly, my stuck feeling started when I left the Baron Baptiste workshop in Dallas. I had a revelation while I was there that I didn’t share with you and at this point, feel it is unnecessary to share with you now. But, it has been looming since then. Since my personal revolution. The moment we arrived in Richmond, I must say, I didn’t really know what to do with myself. I was in teacher training, completely overwhelmed. How was I going to change this hole I felt I had dug myself into. Slowly but surely, I stopped practicing yoga and slowly but surely, I felt conflicted every time I stepped on my mat.
I thought I had lost all motivation to exercise and had lumped my practice into that file cabinet in my head. But after reading that guest post yesterday, it started to fall into place. Yoga is not exercise, at least not for me. Little light bulbs were starting to shine and I wanted to go home and practice right then and there. But, fate had a better idea. I already had plans to have dinner with my friend Susan, the one I went to Dallas with and what a full circle moment it was. We hadn’t spent much time together since we were in Dallas, I think both of our brains were cluttered and busy processing. But last night, we talked and talked and talked and I felt energized. I knew that the path I had been on for the past few months had ended and that I was turning down and different road. A new, exciting road. One that I have no idea where it will take me but I can’t wait to go.
This morning, I woke up at 5 am and finally, a few minutes to 6, I stepped onto my mat. I gazed at my vision board and soaked in the message I wanted to send to the universe and then flowed through a practice that was my own. No books, no cd’s, no podcasts, no rules. Just me, my mat and my heart. The poses flowed out of me, they had been stuck inside. The clocked neared time for me to go and I found myself wishing I had more time there, in that sacred place. The place that means I have shown up for myself. That place that means I knew the answer all along, I just needed to get un-stuck.
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Wow – this is a seriously inspiring post! I still need to read more about your yoga journey, but it sounds like you really had a breakthrough moment this morning. The beauty of yoga, in my view, is that it has the potential to become exactly what you need it to be – if you let it.
Good for you Christie
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Thanks for stopping by, Darryn. I have been loving your blog ever since I found it.
I have been practicing yoga for a couple of years now and it has been an amazing ride. I love what yoga has taught me about myself and feel honored to call myself a yogi.
What a beautiful and inspiring post. I’m so so happy that you found that solace and release. This is what I hope to achieve through yoga practice. A feeling of being present and purposeful in my body’s movements and breathing.
You must feel so at peace with your realization. Good for you for recognizing it and harnessing that energy.
I love this post! So many times I feel like I get “stuck” and am always looking for ways to get “unstuck”. This gives me inspiration
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Great post. I always feel like I can count on yoga to bring me back onto the right path. Negative thoughts, stress, worries, etc all come to the surface and then float away when I practice. I always leave my practice feeling like my body and life have been realigned, as if I’m on the path that I’m meant to be on… it’s an amazing feeling.
i so relate to all of your posts, but this one was amazing. i can’t say that I do the same thing with yoga, but with exercise, writing, and cooking in general…those are all things that i use to become unstuck. thanks for being so honest and such an inspiration!
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what a lovely post. i’m so glad to hear you are back on the mat.
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Thanks for stopping by, Katie and for inspiring me. Your post was just what I needed to get my ball rolling again.
HOORAY! This is such fabulous news! I love love LOVED Katie’s post and I’m glad that it helped you to remember that Yoga, especially your personal practice, is so much more than exercise. I love that the poses just FLOWED out of you- that is a beautiful, beautiful thing.
i am proud of you, and oh so happy for you, my friend!
Thank you, Heather, you have helped me bring so much to the surface the past few days.
This is great to hear! Yoga is defininitely different things for different people and sometimes just labelling it “exercise” can diminish one’s enjoyment of the entire practice. For me, running is like this. I need to do it because I want to do it for my mind, not for my body. The minute I go into it with intentions of burning X number of calories is the minute I want to stop.
Yay to being unstuck!
Just found your blog and I’m so glad I did because this is a lovely and inspiring post! I’m so happy that you got un-stuck from a yoga rut; I definitely experience similar things with yoga sometimes too. I hope your practice continues to grow and be happy!
Thanks for your kind words, Caronae. I am off to check out your blog right now. I love finding new bloggie friends!
I love this post! What a great way of putting it! I get into those kinds of ruts all the time in life, not just with working out. I feel stuck in a lot of ways myself. I am really working on why I feel that way and how I need to change my thought process. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. Sometimes, it is just nice to know you are not alone!
absolutely! that is why I like blogging so much, it gets you in touch with people who really know what you are going through.
This is so inspirational! So happy to have found your blog
Thanks, Nicole! I will check out your site as well!
You are such an amazing writer, and person!
Thank you for always being an inspiration!
Also – I’ve been meaning to tell you for a while – I looked into why you couldn’t comment on my blog the other day but I couldn’t find an answer!
(((( I’m sorry :*(
No worries. If it doesn’t work again, I will let you know!
Good for you for getting “unstuck”! So many times we get into a certain mindset and don’t even know how we got there. I’m glad you found peace
It is really easy to get stuck. Sometimes I feel like it is easier to stay in what we are used to that tough it out and break into something bigger and better.
wow, what a wonderful place you have just found. congrats must feel really good.
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This is incredible! I’m so happy for you, and I appreciate you sharing this with us!
Sometimes we push ourselves so far out that we forget what our original purpose or goal was. But there is ALWAYS a way back, and a way to turn things around. Congratulations on your revelation and becoming “un-stuck”.
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i’m so excited to read this and so happy for you! I know the past year was hard with everything going on and the experiences that weekend, so I am just ecstatic for you
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