Today was the first day of my un-stuck challenge and I must say, it was interesting. I rolled out my mat, opened my copy of Meditations from the Mat
He tells the story of Dorothy and the Wizard of OZ. In the end, Dorothy knows her way home, she just had to prove to herself that she always knew. More and more in my life, with food, exercise, relationships, work, even down to my wardrobe, I have always known my home, too. Life has just taken me in a round about way to get there.
Rolf says that this journey is like seeing home, dimly lit in the far off distance. Some days, the light seems miles away and others, it feels so close it is blinding. And that is exactly what it felt like after I finished reading the short passage for day one. I closed the book and decided to rest in child’s pose and see what happened. I was there and it was uncomfortable. I moved through a couple of rounds of cat and cow only to realize it just didn’t feel right. I want it so desperately that it feels blinding and yet miles away.
I sat back and decided that maybe meditation was my answer for today. The sound of my breath was calming but my thoughts were distracting. Mentally, I could only sit in that stillness with my racing thoughts for a couple of minutes but when I rose and rolled up my mat, I felt satisfied. I’ve started down a new path, it isn’t perfect but I’m on my way. Who knows where I will be in 364 more days but I hope that my light is shining bright.
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I can’t wait to see what happens through this book
It sounds so interesting!
day one sounds perfect…just learning what you need and want again is definitely enough
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I love this post. IT makes me want to go meditate. I need too…
Ooh. Right. Meditation. I was supposed to be doing that… thanks for reminding me
His book sounds great! I like that he breaks it down, day by day.
Your posts are so thoughtful that I always feel like I’m reading a book that I can identify with in so many different ways. The way you write describes your story but also makes feelings come to the surface for me, too. Interesting!