You may, or may not, have noticed that I haven’t been posting much lately. To say that I have been feeling stuck would be the understatement of the decade and finally, I know what to do to move out of it. Changes are happening fast all around me, in every area of my life and I feel like I am on the brink of something greater. But sometimes, we have to go through really hard times to see what is on the other side. My hard times have been vast and plenty and I have done so much work to move through them and let them go. In the process, I have learned that the hard times don’t stop, life keeps happening and it isn’t all rainbows and butterflies. More importantly, I have learned that how we handle these hard times, the challenges of life, is what matters most.
Before I tell you about my plan to become unstuck mentally, I have to tell you what I am doing physically also. As you all know, I gave up gluten a few months ago and while I have muddled my way through it, it hasn’t been easy. For a while, all of my health problems disappeared and every thing was lovely. Then, slowly but surely, a number of my issues started to creep back in despite being very careful about what I was eating. I started digging deeper and deeper and finally accepted something I have intuitively known for a really long time. I have a major problem with sugar and most likely a problem with candida. So, in conjunction with my personal challenge, I am also embarking on an anti-candida diet. It is pretty restrictive at first but should be really helpful in determining if what I suspect is true. I hope that this will lead me to being even more intuitive about my body and what foods I need to eat to fuel it properly. I want to move forward with my health and in order to do so, I have to really give my body what it needs and I need to stop denying the signals it has been sending me for a really long time.
Besides my health, I have also been feeling “stuck” in general. Everything seems to be stale and this morning, I realized what it is I need to do to get the energy moving again. I need to turn to my yoga mat and I need to cultivate the one thing I desire most. A personal practice to get to the bottom of who I am and where I want to go from here. The problem has been guidance. I have talked to all of my teachers about a practice at home and while they all share wonderful advice, none of it has stuck enough to get my on my mat, at home, each and every day. And today, by chance, I was home due to a migraine that started last night and has slowly subsided through the morning. My doorbell rang and a book that I forgot I had even ordered arrived.
As I opened the package, I knew that my inspiration was inside. It was what I needed to get me on my mat. The book is Meditations from the Mat 
Starting tomorrow, I am making a commitment to myself, and to you my dear readers, to step on my mat each day for the next 365 days. I will read the devotion of the day and I will do whatever feels right next. Whether that is an hour and a half yoga practice or a one minute meditation, I will do what I feel lead to do. I will write, each day, about my experience, whether grandiose or just plain boring. I will read, I will practice and I will write. I will become un-stuck.
Sorry to hear about your health issues. I know it can be tough. Hopefully the new diet will help.
I think meditating is a great idea! I need to do more of that.
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i love your brutal honesty, and am so looking forward to reading your experiences over the next 365 days!
I hope all the physical/diet stuff gets worked out soon – I know how frustrating that can be.
Isn’t it amazing when things happen just when we need them to? I’m excited for you with this new book :)
Sorry to hear you haven’t been feeling at your best. Hopefully you will find the inspiration you are looking for through yoga. I enjoy reading so please keep posting!
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I think your health has a lot to do with how you are generally feeling towards things. When you start feeling yucky, even if you can’t pinpoint it, your attitude goes downhill as well.
I’m glad you have a plan to get un-stuck. Hope your migraine goes away and that you feel better on the anti-candida diet!
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I can certainly relate to experiencing this “stuck” times. While they may take a few days to get out of, I know you will and you wil have learned even more on the other side. Best of luck :)
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I just found your blog and I am super intriguied by your honesty. You are very real and I appreciate that! I know being gluten-free can be hard but it is so worth it! My husband and I eat gluten-free as a matter of personal choice. I have a post on my blog about the top GF brands we have found…hope that helps!
http://myhealthypassion.wordpress.com/2009/12/17/gf-product-reviews/
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good luck with the anti-candida diet!
The fact that you’re always evolving inspires me to look within. I’ve felt stuck for the past year- I don’t really like my job, and for some reason, I have allowed that to bleed into other parts of my life. Your plan to get “unstuck” is just what I needed to get me going on a plan of my own!
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It’s a sign! I’m very much looking forward to watching you become “un-stuck.” :)
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Christie – I have a confession. While I do conversate with you via twitter, and have read a handful of your blogs over the course of the last several months, I have not been reading as often as I now wish I would have. Ive spend the last several minutes (uping your page views as I) hopping from one post to the next, trying to learn more about the stuckness and the authentic/excuses debate.
i want you to know that I adore your blog, and am committed to being a better reader/fan/follower/blend (blog+friend- coined from caitlin at thetwentyfifthyear)
I can so relate to so much of what you are saying! im sure lots of good discussion is going to come from all of this! xoxoxox
It is all good, girlfriend. No need for confessions and explanations. I really appreciate your comment and you taking the time to learn more about me. Thanks for getting me thinking this morning on twitter, I think it was really what I needed to get me thinking about where I really and truly am. Am I just suffering because of my health or am I letting problems with my health allow me to slip back into old patterns?