Thank you all for your supportive comments and emails yesterday. I’m so thankful to have you all along on this crazy journey with me and I think getting it out there to all of you really helped me just feel it and then let it go. I am sad that I won’t be a certified yoga teacher at this time next year but the reality is that in order for me to be able to teach, I need to have a stable foundation in my own practice and in my recovery. I jumped in head first, I chased my dream and it taught me that I have a tendency to get too big for my britches. Patience is a virtue and I don’t need everything right now. I’ve still got some growing pains to go through and a long road of recovery. I need to get back to my practice, the practice that comforts me and I need to just be where I am. I need to be present and not rush ahead to the future.
I have faith that the right training program is out there for me and that one day, I will teach yoga. I want to be able to share all of this with anyone who wants to listen. And I think that this little lesson will make me a better teacher when that days comes. Good teachers are born out of experience and this has been an amazing one. I learned I can stand on my head, I can open my heart and I have the support of the best friends a girl could ask for. I am stronger than I ever thought and with my yoga practice, I will only continue to grow.
Peace and Namaste, dear friends.
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i think your decision to do this proves how in tune yoga has made you with yourself – so much so that you know when it’s time to step away. that’s one of the hardest things to do.
your desire to share yoga and the effect it’s had on you just proves what a beautiful person you are – you’re looking to help others. but it’s important to focus on ourselves too, and there is absolutely no shame in doing that. i have a feeling you’ll take something wonderful away from your next yoga practice because it will be all about you. we’re all here to support you as you explore yourself and your recovery – and remember, with this blog, your words are still helping everyone who reads.
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You know that saying: “God doesn’t close a door without opening a window”? I wholeheartedly believe it. I think that the time you will have to do other things now that you are not killing yourself with yoga (half joke) will allow you to pursue other fun things.
I know you will make an excellent yoga teacher and I’m sure you will find the perfect training program for you soon.
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I think you made the best decision for you, right now. I absolutely agree that the right training program is out there for you, somewhere and someday.
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Glad to see that your spirits are up!
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Thanks again so much for your honesty, and for your support on my blog. It’s hard to go through issues in life and be healed from them, but it’s so awesome that you’re aware of what’s happening and taking the steps to not go there. Stay joyful!
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You found me on twitter and i found your blog. I have been a yoga teacher since 2001 (RYT 200 hrs) and am currently finishing my 500 hr RYT. It’s a big commitment and I havent read too many of your posts but it’s admirable you’re putting things on hold til your body, mind, and soul are ready for it. You have to be healthy first and foremost and you’re wise to recognize this. I am a high raw, all vegan, gluten and soy free. I read your FAQs and I’m with you on the dairy and gluten thing, to a T. And with soy, I dont seek it out but if it sneaks in, I dont freak. Gluten yes, soy no.
Best of luck in following your dreams, things will happen as they should.
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I am in no way experienced in yoga, but in a class I took two days ago, the instructor talked about being “in the moment” at the beginning of class–how so often we are too busy thinking about what’s coming to truly experience what is happening currently. This happens in life–anticipating the next weekend and not enjoying the week at hand, thinking about finally finishing with school and not enjoying the process of growing intellectually. But this can also be seen in yoga practice–thinking about what pose will come next and not fully engaging in the current pose. She then encouraged us to not think of future poses during the session and it was a really moving one for me.
I think this post fits in perfectly-with that idea. I feel that you will know when it is time to move forward–when you have fully gotten as much as you can out of where you are now, you will know to become an instructor. And I know you will be a marvelous one–your spirit emanates in your writing and I can only imagine what you are face-to-face. Already you’ve encouraged me to fall in love with this art!
I wish you the very best as you take a step back and take a deep breath in.
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