Happy Monday, dear readers. I am completely wiped out today but in a totally good way :) This weekend was filled with both physical and emotional challenges and I can feel myself changing with each breathe I take. The weekend started with a vinyasa class at Solid Ground Yoga that rocked my world. It was my first time with this teacher and to say she was hard core would be putting it lightly. At the beginning of the class, she asked us to write the name of a person on a sticky note that we needed to give forgiveness and after a little mental battle, I decided to write “myself” on the note. We placed the notes under our mats and began our practice. We flowed fast through variations on Sun A and B and the sweat was pouring from every pore of my body. I felt every range of emotion possible, even coming to tears in one particular hip opener. Every cell of my being was screaming for me to give up and the teacher reminded us that forgiveness is hard and the only way to get it is to go farther than the hard part. Going farther is when change happens.
I left the class in a puddle of sweat and every part of my body was aching. I felt alive and challenged in a way that I had never been before. I went home, studied my sanskrit and prepared for yesterday. I had to get up at the crack of dawn to make the two hour commute to the studio in time for the 9:30 training. I was completely worked up about the training because I wasn’t sure that by body would keep going. I knew what was on the agenda and that I would be pushed even farther. I worked hard and gently reminded myself to “be now here or be nowhere”. Who cares if I can’t do Eka Pada Koundiyanasana II today. With practice I will. Somewhere along the way, a new mantra even bubbled up for me. I believe in who I am.
After my commute home, I met up with my friend Deb and we went to a meeting for local yoga teachers. Sarah was a guest speaker and she talked to us about anusara yoga and it’s beautiful philosophy. Afterwards, we had a wonderful discussion about spirituality and I felt at home. I was physically and emotionally exhausted but to be among a group of so many like minded people felt nourishing and as Sarah said, I felt like I was aligning with the flow of life. My life has been flipped upside down since the day I decided to stop holding myself back from my dream of teaching yoga. I’m busier than I ever have been, every muscle of my body is sore and sometimes I am eating cereal for dinner. I’m living.
I’m so happy for you :)
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You are so inspirational :)
I absolutely love the idea of forgiving someone through a yoga practice.
I am SO happy for you! Perhaps its because I’ve been reading your blog for quite a while now, but ever since you announced that you would be starting yoga teacher training I have noticed a shift in the tone of your posts. You are still real and completely honest, but there is this underlying peaceful tone which is truly beautiful! I’m so happy you are taking this journey and inspiring others through this blog.
Peace :)
What a beautiful and inspiring post.
It sounds like a great journey you are taking.
Thank you once again for sharing your intimate experience with us.
Yoga is an integral part of my life too, and just reading about others who feel similarly makes me swell with joy and peace.
I have to say…it is incredibly exciting reading about your journey to do something you have so much passion for. My friend teaches yoga and I really credit it for keeping her life balanced, and happy. I think you’re exactly right in saying you’re living – that’s what we all should go, rather than let life pass us by.
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I really, really love your attitude. And I, too, see a change in your posts. You seem so much happier and so much calmer even as your life gets busier.
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Wow! I am so excited to find your blog – I am actually going through such a similar experience right now…but you seem to be much more confident and sure about it than I do…I’m feeling rather lost and yet ‘happy’ about it at the same time. Anyways, please check out some of my posts if you have time, I would love your ‘presence’ and add me to your roll!! You’ll be on mine :)
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Oh yoga and its challenges :)