I had fully intended to post a recipe this morning, go to work, do my thang, leave work and get ready for my beach vacation that starts tomorrow. I’m still going to do all of that except the recipe, there is plenty of time for that. I just felt really compelled to tell you all thank you from the very bottom of my heart. The very, deepest part of my heart. When I wrote that post yesterday, I was afraid. I have been hurt so many times and I felt like putting all of that out there was risking being hurt again. And if we get down to the truth of the matter, I was hurt but I won’t spend my time focusing on that. What I really want to say is that I feel so much overwhelming joy from your responses and emails that I want to shout it from the rooftops that I am the luckiest girl in the world.
I now know in my heart where I want to spend my energy and I am open to the possibilities. I have amazing people in my life and I even have people that I didn’t know I had. I think that what yesterday taught me is that each friendship doesn’t start out as giving someone a bath when they can’t walk. They start out small, with a simple hello, and that kind of friendship builds over time, sometimes years and sometimes moments. I learned that staying in touch doesn’t define a friendship and that the people that care about me, care about me without further ado. I also learned that if I am willing to keep my heart open, love will flood in and I will have everything I want from this life. I will have meaningful friendships, the kind that I truly want, and I don’t have to walk in this world feeling alone. The most amazing thing is that I already have more meaningful friendships than I realized.
Those that know me very well, know that I love to talk but more than talk I love to write. To me, exchanging a heartfelt email is just as wonderful as enjoying a glass of wine on the porch. I express myself so easily in writing that it would feel crazy for me not to be able to write it out with a friend or two. I enjoyed seeing each one of those comments pop into my email yesterday but the thing that meant so much to me were the unexpected emails from my friends letting me know that I brought tears to their eyes. Some spawned deep and meaningful conversations and some were quick hellos that touched my heart. I realize that I have the greatest friends a girl could ask for and I even have new friendships on the horizon that I feel in my heart will go the extra mile.
Thank you all. You have brought new meaning to the words quality over quantity.
What a great post to put a smile on my face first thing in the morning!!! It’s funny how people come into your life at certain times, isn’t it? :)
Thank YOU for posting things like this and opening yourself up to us and for showing us sides of ourselves that we don’t even realize sometimes.
Have a GREAT vacation :)
I can’t help but wonder if you were hurt by my comment in your previous post? If so, please know that I truly did not mean to hurt or offend you or Jennifer Polle. I am so happy for you and the success and peace you’ve experienced recently! Truth be told, I want that for myself and am planning to buy the cd and books you’ve recommended so I can hopefully experience it for myself.
Have a happy day!
~amy
Whew! I’m happy to hear that! Keep focusing on the positives (what a great reminder for myself today too!).
what great posts. thank you. i think if i were a little honest with myself AND a little gentler too, i would probably have a more honest, loving and gentle relationship with food.
i have been kind of hurt lately too, and i’m not sure what to do. i fear that what’s best may mean saying a sad good-bye to someone who is a major part of my life. but i’m not sure i can love myself AND accept not being loved for who i am versus some image of who i “should” be.
i know that’s kind of vague, but i feel the need to express this. this post and the last one hit home for me. thank you again. i’ll been reading these over and over.
Hey Amy! : ) Nope, I was not hurt or offended in the least, so please take yourself off that hook. I’m always happy to hear what people are thinking. Take care!
AmyJoGo, No, I was not hurt by your comment yesterday at all! Don’t you even give that a second thought. I’d rather not go into why I was hurt and who did the hurting because I’d rather focus on the positives that came out of all of this.